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[28 Nov 2005|08:18pm] |
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since its been about 4 months since my last update; i thought ill give my semi-annual blerp.
things are well. work is fun. getting a new car in a few weeks (2002 Pontiac Grand Prix-black) finishing up classes in jan. friends are wonderful. ryan is great. family is good. gotta start x-mas shopping soon. all in all; no complaints. hope you are all doing well. sorry this is so brief; take care. <3 jen
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[21 Aug 2005|12:32pm] |
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noted; i am not normally one for updating my livejournal. i like to spend as least time as possible on the computer as i can. i also feel as though i don't like sharing my life with many people. as cold as that sounds,. but i do read some of yours entries, so i might as well play fair and update. and i have a couple minutes to burn before i head to work.
work--i have been working around est 50hours a week. being a manager of a movie theater is fun for being 22years old. this is in no way a chosen career path for me though. i am going to be attending classes in the winter to finish up my degree. as most of you know, i do not settle, and i feel that i am not going to live anywhere near to my expectations if i dont at least get my degree. so that is what i shall do. i have had my fair share of experiences at work.--major fights w/ bloodshed and broken glass. rescuing grandchildren from their drunken grandma. a few power-outages. major water manes bursting. flooded stands. smoke bomb. fucked up lady passed out in theater walkway. kid cracking his head open. the list goes on an on. this job sure can keep you on your toes. the citizens of derry are very interesting to say the least. it makes me very greatful to have at least half a brain on my shoulders. its so sad when you see a child walk in with their parents and they are whining at the top of their lungs; and all the parent does is give the kid what they want. where is the discipline!?. makes me wanna vomit with the amount of un-fit parents their are in the world. i dig the gig for now. but not forever.
might i add that i think that air conditioning was a great invention and this pizza is very tasty.
i took my lip ring and plugs out. i felt it was about that time.
friends-- i try to spend time with people when i can. it sucks though when i don't hang out with people as much as i would like. such as with life, people have their own things to do. people grow closer, and apart. katie for instance; i was best friends with her all through out highschool. we even kept in touch through out most of college. i wish i could spend more time with her again. she is the type of person that once she gets a boyfriend, her whole time and life is devoted to him; with no equal balance of anything else. and once things are done with the current boy, she will call. the cycle starts up again. i love this girl with all my heart and i will always be there for here. emily and i had a falling out. and as horrible as this may sound, i think it was for the best. dont get me wrong, i had some real good times with emily- but sometimes she was a little too rough. i feel that she was always pissed off about something. she always wasn't the most communitative person, and that pisses me off! nothing makes me more mad then when people dont tell me what they are really thinking. i am very open and honest and all i ask for is the same kinda respect in return. she just always brought my ora down. and who needs that.
hopefully i will be going down to boston this saturday to visit zeph and matt. i am so happy for zeph that he moved to boston. but i miss him! we still talk and such, but i use to see him all the time when he lived close =( he's one of the only people now-days that really gets me. i also wish i spent more time with vicki, tom, moz, mike, nick, tyler, chantel, brian, nicole...the list goes on and on.
i enjoy drinking. i use to engage in this activity quite alot in college. but now being 22, it loses its novelty and excitement. and all you wind up is broke and hungover. and with a little beer tummy. speaking of which. i need to lose 5 pounds. i know im not fat, but i need to tone up a bit. cant let this shit go outta hand. and i know everyone tells me how goodlooking or great i look. but i dont see that when i look in the mirror. and this is not a pity seeker either. i always feel bloated and dragged down. i need to go to the gym more, speaking of which i cant find my sneakers and this makes me angry. haha i saw my old trainer at the bar last night. ironic huh?
alot of family stuff has been going on as well. and as open as i am being on this thing, my family issues are going to remain private to me, my close friends, and my family. dont worry its nothing too horrible or anything.
question of the day-- am i taken? -- i have no idea. some of you may know, that i am dating ryan. well, we are seeing eachother. we have been dating for about 6 months now. we are not bf/gf. i dunno its weird. i have never "dated" someone before. it has either been boyfriend or friend. none of this in between stuff. i have no idea what my status is. but what does a label mean anyways. fuck labels. i am not looking to be with anyone else. i haven't been with anyone else since i have started seeing ryan, and from what i know he hasn't either. ryan and i enjoy eachothers company but we both feel at this time we are not ready for a serious relationship yet. both of us have things to focus on in our lives, and also past issues that may effect how one another may interpret things relating to relationships. i dunno, its kinda confusing, but i try not too think too much about it. im just trying to enjoy my life day by day, and appriciate the things that come to me. ryans awesome. he's an account executive at an advertising company. graduated st. a's w/ a 3.0, he's an eagle scout, which i think is fucking awesome! i doubt he reads this, but if he did he would be embarrased with me putting him in such a high light. but he deserves the recognition. we have our ups and downs and we sometimes piss eachother off, but thats healthy i think. sometimes we get along so well, and sometimes we irritate eachother. i like this kid alot. it makes me sad. and i dont want to lose him. but you can not rush things either. he's too much of a good catch. he plays the drums. amazing at pool and bowling. and i think he's very sexy. loves hiking and the outdoors. and he loves his mama! has a heart of gold. so ya-- im not gonna try to fuck this up. im gonna hope for the best. sorry boys-- go try to make out with someone else.
i am going to be getting a new car in about a month or 2. i dont think my current car will be able to make it through the next winter.
i want to start playing soccer again. i need to start looking into seeing if they have leagues around here. it was so much easier being younger. there are so many leagues for young chaps.
well i should be departing soon. as you can see my thought processes are diminishing as i am getting tired or typing on this computer. im just not feeling it anymore, sorry. sorry this entry wasnt deep, or dark or anything. its pretty cut and dry. but i hope everything is going well for you all and please keep in touch. much love -jen
shalom'
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[04 Aug 2005|04:15pm] |
testing...testing...
is this thing on?
i was wondering if people would even care if i posted on this thing anymore. i will if people are down for the cause.
if not.
im deleting this
holllllaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhh
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[20 Mar 2005|04:08pm] |
i hate you so much right now
"A girl died in 1933 by a homicidal murderer. He buried her in the ground when she was still alive. The murdered chanted, "Toma sota balcu" as he buried her. Now that you have read the chant, you will meet this little girl. In the middle of the night she will be on your ceiling. She will suffocate you like she was suffocated. If you post this, she will not bother you. Your kindness will be rewarded. and you wont die =)"
i never do these things.
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[24 Jan 2005|06:49pm] |
just wondering if anyone even reads my posts anymore?
cause ill post more often if i know people will read it.
give a little shout if you do.
wanted dead or alive
<3
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[08 Dec 2004|07:18pm] |
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been depressed as of late. i think i have an addiction to alcohol. i am only happy when i am drunk or in the company of people. or when im being hit on. or when i have a good hair day. i dont like being alone to much. i believe i have too much to offer to be alone. i dont like feeling used. i dont like feeling like an option--like calling me when your other plans fall through. or not calling me at all. when you say you would. i look in the mirror whenever possible. i don't like soup where you either have to add milk or water. i want to open a can of soup and have it ready for me to eat. is that so fucking wrong to ask. i don't like being lied to. oh man i hate being fucking lied to. most of you know that i am one of the most open mother fuckers out there; so if there's something going on; tell me. im not an idiot. so tell me. cause i probably already knew. you cant kid a kidder. i wanna find a nice boy. but i guess that is too much to ask too. i guess it all stems back to the soup. fuck you. lets kiss
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[25 Nov 2004|08:04pm] |
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happy turkey day you fucks!
ate my face off today. ill be burpin up pumpkin pie for weeks!
im thinking about going to cosmopoligy school (dude i cant spell that shit) to do like hair and make-up or whatever people do when they go to school for that shit. this new interest came about when the new lady that cut my hair sat me down and demanded that i need to go to hair school. she said i had a natural eye for the stuff and that my outgoing and daring personality fits its perfectlly. i dunno if im actually gonna go through with it though. if i do go i def wont turn into one of those crack whore type of ones. you know the kinds im talking about. the lady even said that if i decided to go to school with it that i would even have an apprenticeship/job at her salon. thats not bad right!? i of course would still keep the manager at a movie theater gig cause that job is just way to tit to pass up. but i cant be a movie theater manager all my life. i dont know what the fuck i wanna do. who cares! gotta give back to my people and make them pretty. nothing is worse than vanity except being ugly.
lets see what else is going on...working like 45 hours a week. anyone want free movies; you know where to find them ;) sucks we dont have porn on the big screen. that would be amazing!
but my add is kinkin in so i gotta jet. but i hope all you have a wonderful day! i love you all. drop me a line sometime and tell me what you have been up to. miss and love each and every one of you. xoxoxoxoxxxoooxoxoxooxoxo <<<<3333333
*jenny
dont forget to gobble on that gobble
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[24 Nov 2004|04:30pm] |
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had a convo w/ toby that ended up being very beneficial in the end. i thank him for opening up my eyes. i really needed it. a good boy that one is. thanks again toby. much love
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[01 Nov 2004|01:09pm] |
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I NEED A NEW USER NAME!!!! MINE IS FROM 43843092483209432 YEARS AGO AND IT IS A LITTLE EMBARASSING! I CANT CHANGE IT THOUGH
ARGH!
<3
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[01 Nov 2004|12:38pm] |
sorry i haven't really been updating alot. i think this is my 2nd update in 2 months. i appologize. and to tell you the truth; i cheat a little-- because i at least once a day go and read up on all of you on my friends page. so i thought it would only be fair that i give a little insight on the world of jenny.
the apartment is still cool. me and my roomate get along wonderfully. and if you didnt know; we have HD tv and tivo and all this high-tech tv stuff. i never really appriciated it because i rarely watch tv; but i was was watching it earlier today; and DAMN we got some high-tech shit up in this hiz-oouuzze.
i am getting over a cold. i lost my voice kinda. i have no work today! that makes me kinda moist. halloween was fun. partied it up a little. im not really sure what my costume was. i was wearing this short black goth dress with this lacey thing over it and i had a black and blue wig on that was easily mistaken for my own hair cause it was such a similar cut and some high heels and some fish-net stockings. kinda hot.
i have this empty void. as lame as this is gonna sound-- i am a lonely person. not lonely in the friends way; cause i have enough gangstahs to hold me over for life---but in a companionship type way. watch out jenny is getting sappy here for a little bit. like i want a boyfriend. a boyfriend that depends on me but can be independant on his own too. one that will call me randomly just to say hello and that he misses me, but wont freek out if i dont call him back right away. im a rightous and cool chic; where the fuck are you Mr. Right!?
and in political news....both candidates can suck my left one. i think both are idiots and this country can be better lead by me while i get fucked in the ass by a monkey. i dont think and millionare should run our country. there should be a guide-line saying that you cannot make over a certain amount of money to run our country.
mmmmm man im in the mood for pancakes.
oh---maybe part of the reason i am never on here is cause myspace has taken my attention away from this. although both of these sights are lame; i shamefully enough cannot take myself away from the shameless self-promoting hole that is myspace
http://profiles.myspace.com/users/2704545
i have been having these weird dreams lately. like i had a dream i was a lesbian and me and this girl would run around trying to eat eachother out in public with out getting caught. weird? hot? i dunno.
well yeah im gonna go lay down. i wonder if anyone even reads this mumble anymore/
much love
<3 jenny
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[01 Nov 2004|12:37pm] |
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We all want something in the world; and we use all the power we obtain within ourselves to make it possible. humanistic urges, wants and needs all make up the person we are, and the person we want to be or become. we all have idealist illusions that sometimes alter our views. sunglass shades on your glasses never make the world prettier; even with the faint tint of pink. Tears reunite with epervesant stings that everything is going to be ok. we always want what we can’t have. and once we have it; we want more or something different or something impossible to make it better. drown me please in this never-ending continuous spiral. this is the way its suppose to be; an image configured together with needles from your eyes injecting me with an addicting medicine that makes me numb. no one here dies a virgin. life screws us all. my insecurities will me the death of me, but yours will kill me in a bittersweet glow that I have grown accustomed to. equality in that factors that makes the rotation sweet to the touch.
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[08 Sep 2004|07:05pm] |
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well here is like my monthly update.
moved into my apartment. its not bad. wish i lived near manchester so i could be closer to everything and everyone. its just a great deal. 450 a month and thats with everything. and i pay at the end of the month. so i technically get a month of rent for free.
dustin and i broke up. its kind of a messy situation. things happen for a reason.
lets see what else. im dying my hair in a week. black and red. sorry im gonna be better looking than all of you again. no big deal.
i have alot of bruises. i dont know where they are comming from. drinking?
i got a 1 dollar raise. not bad for being here for only 7 months.
that is all for now.
lates
<3 jenny xoxo
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[18 Aug 2004|06:58pm] |
oh yeah.
im moving to an apartment in nashua.
still working in derry.
ya.
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[18 Aug 2004|06:46pm] |
I miss not living at my parents house.
so.
im moving outta my parents house this weekend.
seems to make sense.
ha.
<3
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[07 Aug 2004|12:14pm] |
YOWZAS IM UPDATING.
seen a few shows in the past couple of months that i forgot to post about.
coheed
thursday
dave m.
the used/FFAF
metal fest
mayhem festival (i like mastadon =))
* I should be at the curisval festival right now. but im at work instead. awesome. so many good bands too.
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im at work and i am bored kinda. i am planning on moving out the end of august. i have no money and a high phone bill so it sucks. AT&T blows and i wouldn't even recommend them to a herd of goats.
i am cold in here. i dont wanna live in NH anymore. i want a city. boston is nice ;)
ADD bye bye
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We all want something in the world; and we use all the power we obtain within ourselves to make it possible. humanistic urges, wants and needs all make up the person we are, and the person we want to be or become. we all have idealist illusions that sometimes alter our views. sunglass shades on your glasses never make the world prettier; even with the faint tint of pink. Tears reunite with epervesant stings that everything is going to be ok. we always want what we can’t have. and once we have it; we want more or something different or something impossible to make it better. drown me please in this never-ending continuous spiral. this is the way its suppose to be; an image configured together with needles from your eyes injecting me with an addicting medicine that makes me numb. no one here dies a virgin. life screws us all. my insecurities will me the death of me, but yours will kill me in a bittersweet glow that I have grown accustomed to. equality in that factors that makes the rotation sweet to the touch.
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[19 Jun 2004|03:06pm] |
i turn 21 in 9 days. Vegas in 8.
real update comming soon
<3 jenny
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[26 May 2004|11:28am] |
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fighting for peace is like fucking for virginity
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[26 May 2004|10:56am] |
If passed, the Universal National Service Act of 2003, introduced by House Representative Charles Rangel (D-NY), would require two years of military or civilian national service for all Americans between the ages of 18 and 26 -- both male and female. No exemptions are to be given, according to the bill, for college students.
www.congress.org
Everyone go here and type in your zip code, in the soap box section for "mandatory military draft". Tell your congressman not to vote for the draft. Don't let those mother fuckers sentence us to death.
If thats not enough read this........
There is pending legislation in the House and Senate (twin bills: S 89 and HR 163) which will time the program's initiation so the draft can begin at early
as Spring 2005 -- just after the 2004 presidential election. The
administration is quietly trying to get these bills passed now, while the public's
attention is on the elections, so our action on this is needed immediately.
$28 million has been added to the 2004 Selective Service System (SSS) budget
to prepare for a military draft that could start as early as June 15, 2005.
Selective Service must report to Bush on March 31, 2005 that the system, which
has lain dormant for decades, is ready for activation. Please see website:
www.sss.gov/perfplan_fy2004.html to view the sss annual performance plan - fiscal
year 2004.
The pentagon has quietly begun a public campaign to fill all 10,350 draft
board positions and 11,070 appeals board slots nationwide.. Though this is an
unpopular election year topic, military experts and influential members of
congress are suggesting that if Rumsfeld's prediction of a "long, hard slog" in Iraq
and Afghanisan [and a permanent state of war on "terrorism"] proves
accurate, the U.S. may have no choice but to draft.
Congress brought twin bills, S. 89 and HR 163 forward this year,
http://www.hslda.org/legislation/na...s89/default.asp entitled the Universal National
Service Act of 2003, "to provide for the common defense by requiring that all
young persons [age 18--26] in the United States, including women, perform a period
of military service or a period of civilian service in furtherance of the
national defense and homeland security, and for other purposes." These active
bills currently sit in the committee on armed services.
Dodging the draft will be more difficult than those from the Vietnam era.
College and Canada will not be options. In December 2001, Canada and the U.S.
signed a "smart border declaration," which could be used to keep would-be
draft dodgers in. Signed by Canada's minister of foreign affairs, John Manley,
and U.S. Homeland Security director, Tom Ridge, the declaration involves a
30-point plan which implements, among other things, a "pre-clearance agreement" of
people entering and departing each country. Reforms aimed at making the draft
more equitable along gender and class lines also eliminates higher education
as a shelter. Underclassmen would only be able to postpone service until the
end of their current semester. Seniors would have until the end of the academic
year.
Even those voters who currently support US actions abroad may still object to
this move, knowing their own children or grandchildren will not have a say
about whether to fight. Not that it should make a difference, but this plan,
among other things, eliminates higher education as a
shelter and includes women in the draft.
The public has a right to air their opinions about such an important
decision.
Sincerely,
Nora Maly
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